3.13am Woke up realised I prayed till I slept. Tummy start to feel pain. Seems like gastric. Felt my breast and realised the swollen breast has gone down. in fact since yesterday I realised it has gone down. Wondering if this is the sign that I am no longer pregnant. :(
Got up to get a slice of bread with Nutella and drank water. Went to the toilet and blood flowed out again. Pad is stained like my last visit to the toilet. Water in the toilet bowl is bright red. No clots though.
Checked on the status of my hubby's flight arrival and it still shows delay 7am. Since I turn on the laptop and my mind is overwhelm with praying for the baby. I decided to divert my attention and play games after I finish jotting down all that has happen on this blog.
4.20am Pass out lots of wind. I better get some sleep as I am going to the gynae at 8.30am. :S
Woke up at 7.20am and received my hubby's sms that he is back. Sent him a reply stating all that has happen yesterday. He immediately called me back and told me that he will meet me at the hospital.
Mummy and Uncle came to pick me up at 8am. We reached the clinic on time and waited for the Dr Ho. Was asked to take a blood test cos if the HCG increase means the baby is growing. Waited for almost an hour and my knees went weak when we were asked to see the Dr. Told my mum I think the baby is gone as my breast doesn't swell anymore and nausea is also gone since yesterday.
True enough, HCG was 3. Was shaking but manage to control my tears and emotions. Its a miscarriage and also known as chemical pregnancy. Nothing can be done if baby rejects so we gotta let it go. Dr. Ho wants me to come back on 14 to do another blood test to make sure it is back to zero.
Next we discuss about my fibroids. It is advisable to remove it and a surgery needs to take place. There will be a cut across my stomach and I will not be able to have natural birth in future which means only Cesarean. It will take place next month after this ordeal I went through.
If I were to get pregnant before the surgery then we will abort the surgery. If I don't remove the fibroids I may have difficulty conceiving. Both my hubby and me agreed we should go ahead and heed the doctor's advice to remove it.
I am of cos scared but for the sake of my offspring I have to do it.
The moment I came out of the room I looked at my Mummy, shook my head, told her its gone and broke down and cried.
Its really emotional for me but am sure I will get over it as it is still early. I rather it happen now then at a later stage. Am sure God has His plan.
Lots of concern and smses came but the more I reply the angrier I got especially from people I do not intend to disclose to but got to know about it. There's nothing good to inform to that particular person as, first I don't like her and second, we are not in touch. I do not see the need at all that she was informed. Her concern to me was plain hypocrisy.
I am glad I had a supportive husband. He is really great. Without him I don't think I can go through it by myself.
This blog will end here. Its a memory kept here forever.
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Monday, July 5, 2010
5th July 2010
Woke up at 6am to wee. Am so sleepy and drag myself to toilet but making sure I walked carefully.
Went back to sleep immediately and woke up at 10am. Tummy rumbling with wind. Backache also.
1130am saw brown stain on my pantyliner. Called Fenny and couldn't reach her. Sat on th toilet bowl and blood dripped down. Called clinic and no one answer. Finally got hold of Fenny and she asked me to go to hospital.
Went to clinic and was asked to take urine test and my blood pressure was high. Guess I am panicking. My limps are weak and I am very very worried. Am really on the verge of crying.
Never felt so weak. Kept praying all the way and ask God to help me. The thought of losing the baby lingers in my head. Will I blame God if I lose it? No. I prayed to God that no matter what happens I will accept it and that God knows what's best for me. My faith will not falter because of any mishap.
Fenny went in with me to see Doc. Nurse Susan was there. She mentioned maybe is menses and I almost fainted. Told Fenny if its not pregnancy I am going to hyperventilate. She said she won't be able to handle me cos she is pregnant too. LOL.
DR. Ho came in and did a scan for me. Before he scan he cleaned lots of blood away and he showed me that it is bleeding a lot. I really wanna faint. Then when he scan he said pregnancy can still be seen so ask me don't worry.
He then told me that it is very high chance of miscarriage. Gave me 2 dosage of jab and pills to take. The jab is damn painful but no matter what I have to bear with it. Damage today is $300+.
Fenny fetch me home and pick my Mummy up on the way as she bought us lunch. Fenny told me when she spoke to my Mummy she sound like she cried. I felt bad about it. I know she is very worried too.
Reached home and msg my younger Sister in Law and update her my condition. Told her not to tell my hubby about it as I didn't want him to worry. My elder Sister in law called and I told her what happen. She was relieved to hear that the baby is still there.
My hubby skype me and said hi to my and our baby. I really wanna pour out my anxiety to him but I can't be selfish. I know he will be worried and I don't want to affect his work. Hope he wont be angry with me.
Tummy cramp and I feel like passing motion. Blood dripped out again and I don't really dare to exert too much force to pass motion. Wipe myself and the blood is red. I continue to pray while seated on the bowl. Manage to pass motion but the cramp seem to get worst. Back also pain.
Fenny helped me to contact the clinic and seek further advice. Was told it will still bleed but if every hour I need to change my pad then I should admit myself to hospital.
Was so cold just now that I hide under the quilt. While praying in bed I cried. Talked to my baby to cling on to me. Don't leave me and cling on tight. I promise I will love and care for you dearly.
Fenny tapped me and realised I doze off. Time to take my tablet. Every 7, 3, 11, I must take the tablet.
Cramp has subsided. Don't know what to do now.
16.55pm Just went to pee and its still bleeding. Fresh red.
18.30pm Took a shower and blood flowed down. 2 pieces of blood clot flowed out too. Felt devastated but prayed to be strong. Came out from shower and quickly took medication and lie down. Realised I took the medication wrongly. Supposed to take at 11 but I took at 7pm.
19.15pm Felt blood oozed out again. I really don't dare to go to the toilet to pee. :S
2030pm Bleeding again when I pee. Fenny sms to ask how am I when I told her about the blood clot she asked me to call Dr.
Sms Dr Ho, he asked me to take 3 more pills and see him tomorrow morning at 8.30am.
Am very very worried and don't know how I am going to tell my hubby when he calls me tomorrow from airport.
Just broke down and cried my heart out.
My MIL sms me and ask how is everything. Was wondering to let her know my condition or not and decided to tell her that I had a bit of bleeding. She called me and ask me what happen. She sounded worried and sad. I also don't know how to console her.
Fenny and her hubby, Colin came over. 11.40pm Went toilet and saw blood again. Asked Fenny and my mum to see the blood. It is fresh red. Fenny looked worried and I felt more uneasy. Felt that it is not a good sign but I can't do anything.
Fenny said a prayer for me. My prayer was quite negative. Fenny's was reassuring. After the prayer I broke down... I can't hide my worries and sorrows anymore.
My hubby is not around and I am afraid. Maybe I just wanted his comfort. Perhaps to bury my head on his chest and cry out loud. I really don't know. This baby is not just mine. It is ours. It is everyone in the family. I am worried I will disappoint everyone if anything bad were to happen.
Lots of thoughts in my mind. The good, the bad, the right, the wrong. I need to calm down.
How am I going to break the news to my hubby later when he arrives in Singapore? I hope he will be able to handle it especially after a long flight.
No more cramps. I hope tomorrow will be a great day.
Heavenly Father, bless me and my womb, I believe you have bless me with this fruit. Please continue to see me through it. Let it flourish so that we can nurture it. I am confident in being a good mother. Please bless me with strength and perseverance to deal with this continuous bleeding that is going on now. Bless my gynae that he will be able to assist me throughout this pregnancy in a smooth manner. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.
Went back to sleep immediately and woke up at 10am. Tummy rumbling with wind. Backache also.
1130am saw brown stain on my pantyliner. Called Fenny and couldn't reach her. Sat on th toilet bowl and blood dripped down. Called clinic and no one answer. Finally got hold of Fenny and she asked me to go to hospital.
Went to clinic and was asked to take urine test and my blood pressure was high. Guess I am panicking. My limps are weak and I am very very worried. Am really on the verge of crying.
Never felt so weak. Kept praying all the way and ask God to help me. The thought of losing the baby lingers in my head. Will I blame God if I lose it? No. I prayed to God that no matter what happens I will accept it and that God knows what's best for me. My faith will not falter because of any mishap.
Fenny went in with me to see Doc. Nurse Susan was there. She mentioned maybe is menses and I almost fainted. Told Fenny if its not pregnancy I am going to hyperventilate. She said she won't be able to handle me cos she is pregnant too. LOL.
DR. Ho came in and did a scan for me. Before he scan he cleaned lots of blood away and he showed me that it is bleeding a lot. I really wanna faint. Then when he scan he said pregnancy can still be seen so ask me don't worry.
He then told me that it is very high chance of miscarriage. Gave me 2 dosage of jab and pills to take. The jab is damn painful but no matter what I have to bear with it. Damage today is $300+.
Fenny fetch me home and pick my Mummy up on the way as she bought us lunch. Fenny told me when she spoke to my Mummy she sound like she cried. I felt bad about it. I know she is very worried too.
Reached home and msg my younger Sister in Law and update her my condition. Told her not to tell my hubby about it as I didn't want him to worry. My elder Sister in law called and I told her what happen. She was relieved to hear that the baby is still there.
My hubby skype me and said hi to my and our baby. I really wanna pour out my anxiety to him but I can't be selfish. I know he will be worried and I don't want to affect his work. Hope he wont be angry with me.
Tummy cramp and I feel like passing motion. Blood dripped out again and I don't really dare to exert too much force to pass motion. Wipe myself and the blood is red. I continue to pray while seated on the bowl. Manage to pass motion but the cramp seem to get worst. Back also pain.
Fenny helped me to contact the clinic and seek further advice. Was told it will still bleed but if every hour I need to change my pad then I should admit myself to hospital.
Was so cold just now that I hide under the quilt. While praying in bed I cried. Talked to my baby to cling on to me. Don't leave me and cling on tight. I promise I will love and care for you dearly.
Fenny tapped me and realised I doze off. Time to take my tablet. Every 7, 3, 11, I must take the tablet.
Cramp has subsided. Don't know what to do now.
16.55pm Just went to pee and its still bleeding. Fresh red.
18.30pm Took a shower and blood flowed down. 2 pieces of blood clot flowed out too. Felt devastated but prayed to be strong. Came out from shower and quickly took medication and lie down. Realised I took the medication wrongly. Supposed to take at 11 but I took at 7pm.
19.15pm Felt blood oozed out again. I really don't dare to go to the toilet to pee. :S
2030pm Bleeding again when I pee. Fenny sms to ask how am I when I told her about the blood clot she asked me to call Dr.
Sms Dr Ho, he asked me to take 3 more pills and see him tomorrow morning at 8.30am.
Am very very worried and don't know how I am going to tell my hubby when he calls me tomorrow from airport.
Just broke down and cried my heart out.
My MIL sms me and ask how is everything. Was wondering to let her know my condition or not and decided to tell her that I had a bit of bleeding. She called me and ask me what happen. She sounded worried and sad. I also don't know how to console her.
Fenny and her hubby, Colin came over. 11.40pm Went toilet and saw blood again. Asked Fenny and my mum to see the blood. It is fresh red. Fenny looked worried and I felt more uneasy. Felt that it is not a good sign but I can't do anything.
Fenny said a prayer for me. My prayer was quite negative. Fenny's was reassuring. After the prayer I broke down... I can't hide my worries and sorrows anymore.
My hubby is not around and I am afraid. Maybe I just wanted his comfort. Perhaps to bury my head on his chest and cry out loud. I really don't know. This baby is not just mine. It is ours. It is everyone in the family. I am worried I will disappoint everyone if anything bad were to happen.
Lots of thoughts in my mind. The good, the bad, the right, the wrong. I need to calm down.
How am I going to break the news to my hubby later when he arrives in Singapore? I hope he will be able to handle it especially after a long flight.
No more cramps. I hope tomorrow will be a great day.
Heavenly Father, bless me and my womb, I believe you have bless me with this fruit. Please continue to see me through it. Let it flourish so that we can nurture it. I am confident in being a good mother. Please bless me with strength and perseverance to deal with this continuous bleeding that is going on now. Bless my gynae that he will be able to assist me throughout this pregnancy in a smooth manner. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.
Sunday, July 4, 2010
4th July 2010
Woke up at 8.40am wanting to pee. Urine is quite yellowish. Lower abdominal doesn't feel crampy like the 1st 2 days but still feels funny.
On my laptop and went into Facebook. Felt a bit sleepy and thought to myself I shall go for evening mass.
At 9.40am I suddenly thought of going to Holy Spirit Church's 11am mass. Sent an sms to my cousin, Fenny whether she wanna go mass with me but she didn't reply. Quickly shower and left at 10.20am. Recalled Fenny mentioned few days ago that HSC has blessing for Mum to be while the church(Our Lady Star of the Sea) I have been attending after I move here do not have. Was thinking its 1st Sunday of the month. Not sure will it be done today but I had this strong feeling should be today.
Petrol was low and its 10.30am, have to decide whether to pump or after mass. Saw that Shell station is quite empty so went in to pump petrol.
Arrive in church at 10.45am, grab a bulletin and got myself a seat in the center pew by the aisle. Said my prayer and start looking thru the bulletin. True enough, there is blessing this Weekend for pregnant woman. Quickly thank God for guiding me to the church and to be able to receive blessing from God. Felt a bit lonely as other mothers to be has their husband with them but I told myself, will come again with my hubby next blessings. Will make it a point to come every month till my baby is due.
This baby is from God so it is only right to visit God and receiving His blessing in His Temple.
Was watching TV programme and felt hungry so decided to make a cup of milk giv by Fenny to drink and realised that it is expired. Look thru the rest and realised most of it are expired. Look thru my dustbin and found the last 2 packet I consumed yesterday and its expired too. I had 3 packets 2 days ago and am not sure whether it is expired.
Am worried sick and cried. Am praying that the baby will not be affected. Assume that Fenny will not give me expired stuff and I took it for granted. Guess these 2 preggies are too tired and caught up with other things that we neglected what is always important to us, like checking expiry dates on food products we are going to consume.
Mummy came at 6pm+ and bought me dinner. Cabbage, fried fish and a big drumstick. The drumstick is very tasty but the meat inside is not very cooked. Filled with blood. Didn't dare finish the chicken.
Halfway thru I had tummyache and I pass out lots. Now I am more worried. Will observed my condition the next few hours.
Mummy and Uncle Michael stayed and watch the 7pm series and 9pm variety show with me and left at 10pm. I cut 2 apples and shared with them. Also let them try chocolate eclair Fenny recommend me to buy. I had 1 too. Quite cold though. Oops... ;p
Tummy still rumbling away but no pain. Hope it is ok. Feeling sleepy and pee more than usual.
Mummy advice me not to laugh at others if I come across any funny looking person. Ask me to hang posters of happy babies and look at them more often. LOL.
Appreciate my Mum's concern for me though. Think she has waited for this moment for a long time.
2353am now and my tummy is rumbling. Think I am hungry. Gosh!! What should I eat to fill my tummy? Think its milk and bread I guess.
The vanilla milk is very thick and creamy... ;p Arghhhh..
0059am womb feeling very tight. Strange. Feeling sleepy... zzzz
On my laptop and went into Facebook. Felt a bit sleepy and thought to myself I shall go for evening mass.
At 9.40am I suddenly thought of going to Holy Spirit Church's 11am mass. Sent an sms to my cousin, Fenny whether she wanna go mass with me but she didn't reply. Quickly shower and left at 10.20am. Recalled Fenny mentioned few days ago that HSC has blessing for Mum to be while the church(Our Lady Star of the Sea) I have been attending after I move here do not have. Was thinking its 1st Sunday of the month. Not sure will it be done today but I had this strong feeling should be today.
Petrol was low and its 10.30am, have to decide whether to pump or after mass. Saw that Shell station is quite empty so went in to pump petrol.
Arrive in church at 10.45am, grab a bulletin and got myself a seat in the center pew by the aisle. Said my prayer and start looking thru the bulletin. True enough, there is blessing this Weekend for pregnant woman. Quickly thank God for guiding me to the church and to be able to receive blessing from God. Felt a bit lonely as other mothers to be has their husband with them but I told myself, will come again with my hubby next blessings. Will make it a point to come every month till my baby is due.
This baby is from God so it is only right to visit God and receiving His blessing in His Temple.
Was watching TV programme and felt hungry so decided to make a cup of milk giv by Fenny to drink and realised that it is expired. Look thru the rest and realised most of it are expired. Look thru my dustbin and found the last 2 packet I consumed yesterday and its expired too. I had 3 packets 2 days ago and am not sure whether it is expired.
Am worried sick and cried. Am praying that the baby will not be affected. Assume that Fenny will not give me expired stuff and I took it for granted. Guess these 2 preggies are too tired and caught up with other things that we neglected what is always important to us, like checking expiry dates on food products we are going to consume.
Mummy came at 6pm+ and bought me dinner. Cabbage, fried fish and a big drumstick. The drumstick is very tasty but the meat inside is not very cooked. Filled with blood. Didn't dare finish the chicken.
Halfway thru I had tummyache and I pass out lots. Now I am more worried. Will observed my condition the next few hours.
Mummy and Uncle Michael stayed and watch the 7pm series and 9pm variety show with me and left at 10pm. I cut 2 apples and shared with them. Also let them try chocolate eclair Fenny recommend me to buy. I had 1 too. Quite cold though. Oops... ;p
Tummy still rumbling away but no pain. Hope it is ok. Feeling sleepy and pee more than usual.
Mummy advice me not to laugh at others if I come across any funny looking person. Ask me to hang posters of happy babies and look at them more often. LOL.
Appreciate my Mum's concern for me though. Think she has waited for this moment for a long time.
2353am now and my tummy is rumbling. Think I am hungry. Gosh!! What should I eat to fill my tummy? Think its milk and bread I guess.
The vanilla milk is very thick and creamy... ;p Arghhhh..
0059am womb feeling very tight. Strange. Feeling sleepy... zzzz
Saturday, July 3, 2010
3rd July 2010
Woke up and decided to buy the Holy family statues for my altar at Novena Church instead of Katong Catholic bookshop. Asked my Mum and my 4th Aunt out and of cos broke the news to my 4th Aunt and bought them lunch. Only left with 2 Aunt so I decided that I should inform her about it. Since Mummy mentioned it is ok to break the news to everyone even during my house warming party in 2 weeks time. ;p
Sent an sms to my 3rd Aunt to ask for her hairdresser's mobile no. As my Mum has told her about it I merely wrote that she should have known the news by now. She replied that she was waiting for me to reveal to her and she was very happy and teared. Was very touched. I guess everyone has been waiting for this moment for me as I am 1 of the eldest niece in the family and everyone has settled down and has multiply except me. LOL
Had a wonderful day with them. Talked about babies, pregnancy, passing used baby stuff to me. My Aunt felt that I may be pregnant with a boy as she observed my face. I had this strong feeling too that it is a boy cos it is only boy that I am thinking but I wanted a gal badly actually. But of cos I leave it to God cos I can't choose.
Am enjoying every moment of being pregnant. Not use to walking slowly though and being very careful not to be knock over by passerby.
Came home did my laundry and played my games as usual and don't know what to eat, ended up ordering Mc's.
Broke the news to 1 of my BFF, Audrey when I saw her online. She was quick to remind me that her son, Hugh's jump(my God Son) on my bed was pretty useful. LOL.
Well when she visited me on 10th June I asked her to bring her son to jumped on my bed as this is a new bed. Though silly but it was fun.
Not much cramps today but feels tired and giddy though.
Had this thoughts of writing blogs about my pregnancy and here I am starting from today.
Sent an sms to my 3rd Aunt to ask for her hairdresser's mobile no. As my Mum has told her about it I merely wrote that she should have known the news by now. She replied that she was waiting for me to reveal to her and she was very happy and teared. Was very touched. I guess everyone has been waiting for this moment for me as I am 1 of the eldest niece in the family and everyone has settled down and has multiply except me. LOL
Had a wonderful day with them. Talked about babies, pregnancy, passing used baby stuff to me. My Aunt felt that I may be pregnant with a boy as she observed my face. I had this strong feeling too that it is a boy cos it is only boy that I am thinking but I wanted a gal badly actually. But of cos I leave it to God cos I can't choose.
Am enjoying every moment of being pregnant. Not use to walking slowly though and being very careful not to be knock over by passerby.
Came home did my laundry and played my games as usual and don't know what to eat, ended up ordering Mc's.
Broke the news to 1 of my BFF, Audrey when I saw her online. She was quick to remind me that her son, Hugh's jump(my God Son) on my bed was pretty useful. LOL.
Well when she visited me on 10th June I asked her to bring her son to jumped on my bed as this is a new bed. Though silly but it was fun.
Not much cramps today but feels tired and giddy though.
Had this thoughts of writing blogs about my pregnancy and here I am starting from today.
2nd day from receiving the great news.
2nd July 2010 - Was worried to see blood every time I pee. Lots of negative thoughts like, what if I lose the baby, what if this what if that. Tried to pray and snap myself out of it.
Lots of cramps occur on my lower abdominal. Floor decking guy came to install the decking and while he was drilling outside my house, my womb cramp badly. I quickly walked into my room. This thing about "Pantang" (old wives tales). I used to tell myself I am not superstitious but when I am pregnant I will be but ever since my faith with God has strengthen I decide not to believe and abide by these tales but to look upon God and pray. Being human, I am weak, I sometimes dwell into the what if again.
Though tough but I am sure I will get over it. God has given me this child, He will see me through it for sure. Faith is the key here and it is not easy to have strong faith.
I asked my cousin and Mummy out to shop for a water boiler as the milk I tried to consume was too thick and I couldn't dissolve it fully with our current boiler.
Had a good buy on the boiler as the price tag shows $80+ original price, sale price $52+ but when I went to pay it is actually $33+. LOL. Both my cousin and me looked at each other and giggled and we quickly pay and left.
After that we went to shopping mall and shop for maternity clothes. I know it is a bit early but I was having the urge to buy something new to me. It was real fun looking at something I've never purchase for myself before in my life. I really had a good time. Bought a dress, shorts and 2 spaghetti strap top. My cousin knew the boss and had 30% discount on all my purchases.
Later we walked to Fox kids and I saw this cute Mum to be tees that reads, "First time Mum 09" Its nice but because of the 09 I didn't wanna get it as it is 2010 now. Instead I saw this other tee " I am not fat, I am just pregnant. I quickly took it as it was the last piece and moreover I just told my hubby now I can tell people that I am not fat but I am pregnant(I gained more than 5kg after our wedding 4months ago).
After shopping for grocery I went home. My hubby was asleep as he needs to work at night. Usually I will go into the room and check on him but don't know why this time I did not.
I decided to cook porridge for him before he woke up. While I was almost finishing, he came to the kitchen and I was surprised he was awake so early. He then told me the room flooded.
Apparently the drainage waste on the balcony floor was blocked and the rain couldn't flow down into the drain and thus overflowed into our room. We gotta mop and clear the water. This was what I actually worried will happen when my hubby wanna level the balcony floor with the bedroom.
I ended my day with fetching my hubby to work and went to our old place to pick up our letters and finally I had this craving of KFC and was trying to resist and remembered my mum told me to fulfill my craving and not deprive my baby of it. So I lost and bought 2 piece meal home.
Before I went to sleep I sat on my bed and prayed to God. Followed by reading this Mother & Baby Care Book loan to me from my cousin.
Lots of cramps occur on my lower abdominal. Floor decking guy came to install the decking and while he was drilling outside my house, my womb cramp badly. I quickly walked into my room. This thing about "Pantang" (old wives tales). I used to tell myself I am not superstitious but when I am pregnant I will be but ever since my faith with God has strengthen I decide not to believe and abide by these tales but to look upon God and pray. Being human, I am weak, I sometimes dwell into the what if again.
Though tough but I am sure I will get over it. God has given me this child, He will see me through it for sure. Faith is the key here and it is not easy to have strong faith.
I asked my cousin and Mummy out to shop for a water boiler as the milk I tried to consume was too thick and I couldn't dissolve it fully with our current boiler.
Had a good buy on the boiler as the price tag shows $80+ original price, sale price $52+ but when I went to pay it is actually $33+. LOL. Both my cousin and me looked at each other and giggled and we quickly pay and left.
After that we went to shopping mall and shop for maternity clothes. I know it is a bit early but I was having the urge to buy something new to me. It was real fun looking at something I've never purchase for myself before in my life. I really had a good time. Bought a dress, shorts and 2 spaghetti strap top. My cousin knew the boss and had 30% discount on all my purchases.
Later we walked to Fox kids and I saw this cute Mum to be tees that reads, "First time Mum 09" Its nice but because of the 09 I didn't wanna get it as it is 2010 now. Instead I saw this other tee " I am not fat, I am just pregnant. I quickly took it as it was the last piece and moreover I just told my hubby now I can tell people that I am not fat but I am pregnant(I gained more than 5kg after our wedding 4months ago).
After shopping for grocery I went home. My hubby was asleep as he needs to work at night. Usually I will go into the room and check on him but don't know why this time I did not.
I decided to cook porridge for him before he woke up. While I was almost finishing, he came to the kitchen and I was surprised he was awake so early. He then told me the room flooded.
Apparently the drainage waste on the balcony floor was blocked and the rain couldn't flow down into the drain and thus overflowed into our room. We gotta mop and clear the water. This was what I actually worried will happen when my hubby wanna level the balcony floor with the bedroom.
I ended my day with fetching my hubby to work and went to our old place to pick up our letters and finally I had this craving of KFC and was trying to resist and remembered my mum told me to fulfill my craving and not deprive my baby of it. So I lost and bought 2 piece meal home.
Before I went to sleep I sat on my bed and prayed to God. Followed by reading this Mother & Baby Care Book loan to me from my cousin.
The Great News
1st July 2010, 1530pm was an appointment made 3 months ago with my gynae to do a scan and colposcopy as I had CIN I before, therefore this is a regular check up for me.
I had 4 fibroid, 2 old ones(occur many years ago) and the 2 new ones were found in Apr 2010. Was told if I am still not pregnant it will be removed by day surgery. My menses is due on 2nd July.
My hubby was around and followed me for my check up. My weight was taken and it reads 67.6kg.
I told doc that I had orangy and brownish discharge followed by cramps on my lower abdominal on the 26th June. Doc suggested to do a blood test to test for pregnancy.
We went to the lab and have my blood taken and as we were walking towards the cafeteria for a cup of coffee as the result may take awhile we passed by the chapel in the hospital. So I told my hubby to go in and say a prayer. I was a bit worried about the fibroid and of cos I hope that I am pregnant but I leave everything to God's timing as I believe He has it all worked out for me.
When we re enter the Doc's room, he was smiling at us and he started with how some patients are not receptive when asked to do pregnancy blood test thinking he wanna earned their money only. Blah blah blah he went on....
My eyes was trying to see the result slip on his desk but I cant see much. Then he looked at the result and said HCG is 19 and its early stage. I was a bit puzzled but at the same time something tells me I should be pregnant.
Doc then told us he wont do the colposcopy but just do a scan on me. I went in and lie down and while Doc was looking at the TV monitor showing my womb, my hubby came in too. I was taken aback as I was wondering why he came in without being asked to and even thought he was rude to do so. Was told later that the nurse asked him to come in actually.
Doc mentioned there are signs of pregnancy in the womb lining and showed us my 4 fibroids. Biggest measuring 6cm.
When it is done both doc and nurse helped me up and I jumped to get down and doc immediately told me not to jump and that confirmed my suspicion.
Doc explained where all the fibroids are and hope that the implantation will not occur near it. If it does I will need to go through Cesarean.
Lastly he congratulated us and my hubby actually looked at me and asked: "You mean you are pregnant?"
I laughed aloud and told him I am. Doc told him it is a confirmed pregnancy and congratulated us again. Then he told me to be very careful this first trimester and the dos and don'ts.
Well both of us couldn't believe what just happen and were giggling away. When we were waiting to pay the bills, my hubby looked at me and call me Mummy... LOL. I return with calling him Daddy too. LOL
Then I told my hubby, remember we were asked to offer bread and wine during mass last Sunday and it was our second time asked to offer. First time was we wanted to get married in St Teresa Church and were praying to God for confirmation and we were asked to offer.
So this time when we were asked again though it is another church, I had this strong feeling something great is gonna happen and it is definitely a pregnancy. So I told my hubby something good is gonna happen to us again and he immediately said it must be a baby.
My hubby agreed and his faith is stronger now too.
I couldn't stop thanking God for His blessings on us. Very grateful and touched by his love and His timing. Was caught between getting a job and being pregnant. Was very certain God's plan for me is to be pregnant and fulfill my duty as a wife and mother only. Being realistic and an able bodied person, rightfully I should work and help my hubby lightened the burden of all the commitments at home.
I did apply for many jobs, went for a few interviews and fail to get the job which is very unlikely for me. Was disheartened but also felt that it is a sign from God preventing me to work. I do not dare to share this with anyone even my hubby as I do not want them to think that I am making this up. It wasn't easy for me. I just pray whenever I am weak and God kept me strong. Am glad this is over. This baby came solving all mysteries and struggles I had. All the thoughts I had wasn't from my own. It is truly from God.
Next thing we did was call our families. My Mum thought I was joking with her when I told her she is promoted to Grandmother. Sent my Dad an sms telling him he is promoted to Grandfather and he replied, Ok thks, take good care. ;p The usual short and cool reply.
My Mother in Law sounds so elated with the news and told me she has waited for this moment for a long time. Told me to take care of myself and remind me not to eat instant noodles. Ask me whether I want fish or not. Told her no need as it will be very troublesome for her to bring all the way out from Kuching. Well she told me she made "Bak Chang" and "Ngoh Hiong" for us already. Some for my Brother in Law too. LOL. Thought she was very cool about whether I am pregnant or not but today I realised she really wanted a grandchild badly from her youngest son. :)
It was indeed a day of joy for us. We happily drove to Ikea to buy some stuff for our new home and at the same time sharing this great news with the rest of our families.
My Brother in Law told my hubby that he hope that we are having a boy and my hubby mentioned it doesn't matter. As long as the baby is healthy and happy we will be very happy. Upon hearing this I felt the stress. LOL.. There goes the what ifs again. Shrug it off immediately.
I had many mixed feelings. I guess every pregnant women felt the same. One thing I do everyday is my prayer. Pray for a healthy, happy and loving baby.
I had 4 fibroid, 2 old ones(occur many years ago) and the 2 new ones were found in Apr 2010. Was told if I am still not pregnant it will be removed by day surgery. My menses is due on 2nd July.
My hubby was around and followed me for my check up. My weight was taken and it reads 67.6kg.
I told doc that I had orangy and brownish discharge followed by cramps on my lower abdominal on the 26th June. Doc suggested to do a blood test to test for pregnancy.
We went to the lab and have my blood taken and as we were walking towards the cafeteria for a cup of coffee as the result may take awhile we passed by the chapel in the hospital. So I told my hubby to go in and say a prayer. I was a bit worried about the fibroid and of cos I hope that I am pregnant but I leave everything to God's timing as I believe He has it all worked out for me.
When we re enter the Doc's room, he was smiling at us and he started with how some patients are not receptive when asked to do pregnancy blood test thinking he wanna earned their money only. Blah blah blah he went on....
My eyes was trying to see the result slip on his desk but I cant see much. Then he looked at the result and said HCG is 19 and its early stage. I was a bit puzzled but at the same time something tells me I should be pregnant.
Doc then told us he wont do the colposcopy but just do a scan on me. I went in and lie down and while Doc was looking at the TV monitor showing my womb, my hubby came in too. I was taken aback as I was wondering why he came in without being asked to and even thought he was rude to do so. Was told later that the nurse asked him to come in actually.
Doc mentioned there are signs of pregnancy in the womb lining and showed us my 4 fibroids. Biggest measuring 6cm.
When it is done both doc and nurse helped me up and I jumped to get down and doc immediately told me not to jump and that confirmed my suspicion.
Doc explained where all the fibroids are and hope that the implantation will not occur near it. If it does I will need to go through Cesarean.
Lastly he congratulated us and my hubby actually looked at me and asked: "You mean you are pregnant?"
I laughed aloud and told him I am. Doc told him it is a confirmed pregnancy and congratulated us again. Then he told me to be very careful this first trimester and the dos and don'ts.
Well both of us couldn't believe what just happen and were giggling away. When we were waiting to pay the bills, my hubby looked at me and call me Mummy... LOL. I return with calling him Daddy too. LOL
Then I told my hubby, remember we were asked to offer bread and wine during mass last Sunday and it was our second time asked to offer. First time was we wanted to get married in St Teresa Church and were praying to God for confirmation and we were asked to offer.
So this time when we were asked again though it is another church, I had this strong feeling something great is gonna happen and it is definitely a pregnancy. So I told my hubby something good is gonna happen to us again and he immediately said it must be a baby.
My hubby agreed and his faith is stronger now too.
I couldn't stop thanking God for His blessings on us. Very grateful and touched by his love and His timing. Was caught between getting a job and being pregnant. Was very certain God's plan for me is to be pregnant and fulfill my duty as a wife and mother only. Being realistic and an able bodied person, rightfully I should work and help my hubby lightened the burden of all the commitments at home.
I did apply for many jobs, went for a few interviews and fail to get the job which is very unlikely for me. Was disheartened but also felt that it is a sign from God preventing me to work. I do not dare to share this with anyone even my hubby as I do not want them to think that I am making this up. It wasn't easy for me. I just pray whenever I am weak and God kept me strong. Am glad this is over. This baby came solving all mysteries and struggles I had. All the thoughts I had wasn't from my own. It is truly from God.
Next thing we did was call our families. My Mum thought I was joking with her when I told her she is promoted to Grandmother. Sent my Dad an sms telling him he is promoted to Grandfather and he replied, Ok thks, take good care. ;p The usual short and cool reply.
My Mother in Law sounds so elated with the news and told me she has waited for this moment for a long time. Told me to take care of myself and remind me not to eat instant noodles. Ask me whether I want fish or not. Told her no need as it will be very troublesome for her to bring all the way out from Kuching. Well she told me she made "Bak Chang" and "Ngoh Hiong" for us already. Some for my Brother in Law too. LOL. Thought she was very cool about whether I am pregnant or not but today I realised she really wanted a grandchild badly from her youngest son. :)
It was indeed a day of joy for us. We happily drove to Ikea to buy some stuff for our new home and at the same time sharing this great news with the rest of our families.
My Brother in Law told my hubby that he hope that we are having a boy and my hubby mentioned it doesn't matter. As long as the baby is healthy and happy we will be very happy. Upon hearing this I felt the stress. LOL.. There goes the what ifs again. Shrug it off immediately.
I had many mixed feelings. I guess every pregnant women felt the same. One thing I do everyday is my prayer. Pray for a healthy, happy and loving baby.
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