The Great News

1st July 2010, 1530pm was an appointment made 3 months ago with my gynae to do a scan and colposcopy as I had CIN I before, therefore this is a regular check up for me.

I had 4 fibroid, 2 old ones(occur many years ago) and the 2 new ones were found in Apr 2010. Was told if I am still not pregnant it will be removed by day surgery. My menses is due on 2nd July.

My hubby was around and followed me for my check up. My weight was taken and it reads 67.6kg.

I told doc that I had orangy and brownish discharge followed by cramps on my lower abdominal on the 26th June. Doc suggested to do a blood test to test for pregnancy.

We went to the lab and have my blood taken and as we were walking towards the cafeteria for a cup of coffee as the result may take awhile we passed by the chapel in the hospital. So I told my hubby to go in and say a prayer. I was a bit worried about the fibroid and of cos I hope that I am pregnant but I leave everything to God's timing as I believe He has it all worked out for me.

When we re enter the Doc's room, he was smiling at us and he started with how some patients are not receptive when asked to do pregnancy blood test thinking he wanna earned their money only. Blah blah blah he went on....

My eyes was trying to see the result slip on his desk but I cant see much. Then he looked at the result and said HCG is 19 and its early stage. I was a bit puzzled but at the same time something tells me I should be pregnant.

Doc then told us he wont do the colposcopy but just do a scan on me. I went in and lie down and while Doc was looking at the TV monitor showing my womb, my hubby came in too. I was taken aback as I was wondering why he came in without being asked to and even thought he was rude to do so. Was told later that the nurse asked him to come in actually.

Doc mentioned there are signs of pregnancy in the womb lining and showed us my 4 fibroids. Biggest measuring 6cm.

When it is done both doc and nurse helped me up and I jumped to get down and doc immediately told me not to jump and that confirmed my suspicion.

Doc explained where all the fibroids are and hope that the implantation will not occur near it. If it does I will need to go through Cesarean.

Lastly he congratulated us and my hubby actually looked at me and asked: "You mean you are pregnant?"

I laughed aloud and told him I am. Doc told him it is a confirmed pregnancy and congratulated us again. Then he told me to be very careful this first trimester and the dos and don'ts.

Well both of us couldn't believe what just happen and were giggling away. When we were waiting to pay the bills, my hubby looked at me and call me Mummy... LOL. I return with calling him Daddy too. LOL

Then I told my hubby, remember we were asked to offer bread and wine during mass last Sunday and it was our second time asked to offer. First time was we wanted to get married in St Teresa Church and were praying to God for confirmation and we were asked to offer.

So this time when we were asked again though it is another church, I had this strong feeling something great is gonna happen and it is definitely a pregnancy. So I told my hubby something good is gonna happen to us again and he immediately said it must be a baby.

My hubby agreed and his faith is stronger now too.

I couldn't stop thanking God for His blessings on us. Very grateful and touched by his love and His timing. Was caught between getting a job and being pregnant. Was very certain God's plan for me is to be pregnant and fulfill my duty as a wife and mother only. Being realistic and an able bodied person, rightfully I should work and help my hubby lightened the burden of all the commitments at home.

I did apply for many jobs, went for a few interviews and fail to get the job which is very unlikely for me. Was disheartened but also felt that it is a sign from God preventing me to work. I do not dare to share this with anyone even my hubby as I do not want them to think that I am making this up. It wasn't easy for me. I just pray whenever I am weak and God kept me strong. Am glad this is over. This baby came solving all mysteries and struggles I had. All the thoughts I had wasn't from my own. It is truly from God.

Next thing we did was call our families. My Mum thought I was joking with her when I told her she is promoted to Grandmother. Sent my Dad an sms telling him he is promoted to Grandfather and he replied, Ok thks, take good care. ;p The usual short and cool reply.

My Mother in Law sounds so elated with the news and told me she has waited for this moment for a long time. Told me to take care of myself and remind me not to eat instant noodles. Ask me whether I want fish or not. Told her no need as it will be very troublesome for her to bring all the way out from Kuching. Well she told me she made "Bak Chang" and "Ngoh Hiong" for us already. Some for my Brother in Law too. LOL. Thought she was very cool about whether I am pregnant or not but today I realised she really wanted a grandchild badly from her youngest son. :)

It was indeed a day of joy for us. We happily drove to Ikea to buy some stuff for our new home and at the same time sharing this great news with the rest of our families.

My Brother in Law told my hubby that he hope that we are having a boy and my hubby mentioned it doesn't matter. As long as the baby is healthy and happy we will be very happy. Upon hearing this I felt the stress. LOL.. There goes the what ifs again. Shrug it off immediately.


I had many mixed feelings. I guess every pregnant women felt the same. One thing I do everyday is my prayer. Pray for a healthy, happy and loving baby.